Abundance pipeline :-)

There’s a big snow storm. This morning the radio announced that the schools were closed for students and staff. Witch means I’m on march break. Witch means I’m the happiest girl on earth. I’m so excited to be on vacation that I woke at 6:30, heard the announcement and couldn’t get back to bed. So it’s 7:30 and I’m up and about ready to start my creative day!… My creative week I shall say…

Today’s goals :

1. Home responsibilities : vacuum my basement

2. Creativity : Check some more stuff for the web site

3. Do exercise : A walk if I can (weather), yoga, stretching etc.

3 things I love about my self

1. I’m happy.

2. I’m healthy.

3. I’m wealthy.

Being wealthy or rich for me starts with being rich inside. You have to notice it, be grateful for it, work with it, grow with it, recognize it and then feel it. It took me almost a year to fully integrate it and it just the beginning of the end. So I’m not wealthy in terms of money but inside me, my light and resources are more than rich they are abundant. With Louise Hay CD I learnt to visualize a pipeline coming in and a pipeline going out. So, it a circuit, a circulation of exchange of energy. Just like are bodies.

Boy…I think I got up to early. I’m feeling sleepy again. I hope this virus is done. I was blowing my nose for 45 min. a while ago. Everyday, I’m think ok how much stuff can there possibly in there, it must be over soon. Everyday I think ok this must be the last day I feel so drowsy. But I can feel it… Today is the day… cause I’m on march break. And that is what’ve decided, there!

I want to check my e-mails today. With dial-up it will take a while but I don’t have choice, right? It’s either I don’t look at them at all or I put my patience in practice.

I have to put wood in that woodstove, it’s getting chilly, especially with that wind. I’ll be able to benefit for that heat I love all week. That is so perfect. I love that warmth. Yesterday, I had a 2 loads delivered. It’s cedar. The smell is just a blessing to my nostrils. It so soothing, warm and calming. I can smell through the whole house. It’s a good thing I love the smell of it. It smells like winter. No that’s a funny thing to say. But it does, really. Today I think I’m going to light candles and burn encens to celebrate my first day of holiday.

Tomorrow I have a scrapbooking workshop. That will be fun.

Friday, February 27th 2009

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An emotional passage…

Well, yesterday morning I called in sick.  I had to sleep.  So I went back to bed and woke at 11:00.  Then, I  went to work.  Around 2 pm I got tired again.  I’ve been feeling tired and weak for a week.  It must be almost over…

I was still able to accomplish my first 2 goals.

Today’s goals will be :

1. Work : Start the new section in my book preparation.
2. Home responsibilities : Put away some sewing materiel  in my new cupboard.
3. Creativity : Work on the web sit design + ask for some legal advice.

I have to ask for advice for a couple of my ideas for the web site.  I was wondering if I want to put in a reference (book or author) if I need permission from the creator.   And can I put a link to a book store so the surfer can buy the book I’m referring to.  It’s all legal advice.

I think I know just the right person to ask.  I met this spiritual lawyer in a retreat center.  He actually crated a publishing house in he’s home.  So I think he would be the perfect person to ask.

Next week is my march break.  I have my appointment with the web masters on Monday.  I really hope we can begin right away.  I’m pretty excited!  I still have all kinds of ideas coming in.  My latest one is creating  a deck of cards with short poems.  That would be awesome!  But still… I would like to illustrate my own cards.  I need time for that.  If I could launch that site and see hoe it goes financially after maybe I would be able to eventually take some time off my job.  I love my job, don’t get me wrong.  I chose that career and I’m grateful for having this job.  It’s just that it doesn’t suite me anymore.  I could create all day.  Wow!

That site though will be demanding in time and energy.  I would have to scan a lot of covers and summaries to put on that web site.  And I should start soon.  I guess I’ll have to put that in my daily goals.

Speaking of scanning… I also have to scan some pictures and make a home video for our family reunion this summer.  That will also take a while.

I’m writing this sitting on my bed.  I have 2 big windows and all I see when I look outside is cedar trees.  It snowed last night and those cedar trees are full of beautiful white snow.  With the sun rising, the change of color, the snow , everything is so beautiful.  Plus it’s only zero and no wind witch make’s it perfect since it’s not so cold.  It’s the kind of day you wish you were home to take plenty of walks and play in the snow.  It will change though, they are calling for winds up to 60 k/h, -20, and up to 10 to 20 cm of snow.  It will be ugly on those roads.

I just love the music I put on every morning when I do these morning pages.  I listen to it falling asleep too.  It’s so aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh! Calming.  It’s Louis Lachance’s Harmon chakra.  I really relax to it.

Hey I forgot the 3 things I love about my self :

1. I learnt to stand my ground and not be influenced by others fears and recommendations.
2. I love the way I live.
3. I love my body.

I noticed that some of these things I say I love about my self in that particular moment.  For instance, today I love my body but maybe tomorrow if I’m in ache and pains I won’t love it so much.  I think that in life we have to accept the highs and the lows and what ever is in between.  Those are emotional experiments and make us who we are.  I also learnt that everything is a passage, temporary.

Well, there I go off to work!

Good day!

Thursday, February 26th 2009

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Body needs

I slept really well.  I really needed it. Yesterday afternoon I could feel a little fog in my head.  I wasn’t able to concentrate and was very slow in action.

I’m still congested.  I think it take about 10 days without medication to heal sinusitis and a bronchitis.  I’ve done it before.

Yesterday my parents came for a visit and brought me a piece of furniture that my ant gave me.  It’s like a TV armoire.  There’s cupboards, shelves and two drawers.  I’ll be putting my sowing stuff in there.  It will be pretty practical.  And I’m pretty happy that I washed all up and put the stuff in already.  Usually I procrastinate and wait.  I did quite a bit yesterday when I got home ;  I tidied my guest room, fold some laundry and washed my humidifier.

 That brings me to yesterday’s goals.  At school I was able to finish up those books but not start to brainstorm my ideas for the exhibit.  I was not able to check out the web designing either.  It’s perfect though cause I did more at home.

So, today’s goals are :

1. Work : Start a new section in the book treatments + prepare new magazine arrivals + if I have time left, brainstorm for the exhibit.
2. Home responsibilities : watch some home videos. (I’m supposed to put together a home video for our family reunion this summer.)
3. Creativity : web design or landing pages.

Now 3 things I love about my self :

1. I listen to my body’s needs.
2. These days I’m well organized.
3. I open my mind to new possibilities and opportunities.

Well’ I hardly have anything else to say.  I think the intuitive poem energy poem writing is back.  I haven’t been listening though ; either to occupied or to tired.  It’s something that will pass so I should take the time to listen.

I can feel inflammation in my throat and neck.  I think I need more sleep.  I not sure if it’s tiredness or weakness but I do feel sort of lethargic or lazy.

Well it’s my time.  I going to get ready for work.  This morning, I would definitely stay home if I could.  Maybe I don’t listen to well to my body’s needs after all.

Wednesday,  February 25th 2009

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Proud of my self!

Well, in general I’m feeling better but my sinuses and chest are still congested.  I am able to blow or spite it out.  It’s a good thing, otherwise I would have pneumonia.

I pretty proud of my self.  I was able to accomplish yesterday’s goal.  I just have a couple of books to prepare to accomplish no one’s goal.  It was fairly quiet yesterday.  It should be quiet today too.  I love those days, I’m productive.

Here are today’s goals :

1. Work : Finish off those couple of books and start to assemble some ideas for a book exhibit I have in may.
2. Home responsibility : Clean my humidifier.
3. Creativity : Continue to put on paper my web design and/or landing pages.

And now for 3 thing I love about my self :

1. I’m willing to stay open to new ideas or teaching.
2. I love to learn.
3. My grace

It’s always a little longer to find those qualities.  I have too think about it.  It’s not that I don’t love my self, it just finding something to say.  There are plenty of things I love about my self but when I come to put in words, and for the world to see, I sit for a couple of minutes and think.

Before I went to bed I decided to pick  a cards from one of Doreen Virtue’s deck “the Ascension masters” and I picked : Writing.  I thought it was pretty accurate.  Plus this week’s astrology called for a certain accomplishment in that area.  So before closing the light last night I sat there with a pen and paper and came out a couple of poems.  So, if I listen I will hear more rimes.  I have to take the time to quiet my mind and write some more poems.

Well, I’m late paying a couple of bills.  I’m procrastinating.  I should do that today too and get it of my mind.  It’s sucking my good energy.

For the rest I’m proud of my accomplishments.  My house is clean,  I can work on typing the poems and work on the web design.  I take walks with Katou and brush her regularly.  I cook my self pretty good meals.  My laundry is regularly done too.  So I’m up to date with all my stuff.  I think it’s the fact that I writ e this and set goals.  It helps me to plane and get organized.  And like I don’t plane to mush stuff in advance I’m not disappointed.  On the contrary, I proud of my accomplishments.

Now, my cat Bibitte wants some food.  I think I’ll go and give him a little scoop.  Anyway my legs are sore and I’m quite done.

Wishing you readers a beautiful day!

Tuesday, February 23rd 2009

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Chilly Monday

 Hello!

This morning I put my alarm clock on earlier so I don’t feel as rushed in the morning.  So I took my time to awake.  I feel sleepy but less in a rush.  As I woke I realized how chilly it was.  So I put wood in the fire and turned up the heat in my bedroom and closed the door.  And then I started to think of summer.  I’m already anxious to see the hot summer sun come in through my windows.  It would be wonderful to be able to lay in the sun for a couple of hours…  Nice!  In stead… I have snow packed up against my window.    Actually,  I’ve never seen the snow packed so high against that window.  I’ve been living here for almost 5 years.

It’s weird, I have hardly anything to say this morning.  I could tell you it’s Monday and that I don’t feel like working but since I got up earlier I don’t feel it as much.  And it’s not that I don’t want to work, it’s more like it’s too early for me.  If it was for me I would show up at 9h00 or 9h30.  Or work from home, that would be just great!  I could be here with my beloved dog and cat and take care of my home.   And I do believe I will do that some day.  Meanwhile, I’m dreaming it.  Nothing wrong with creative thoughts right?

Yesterday I was feeling better so I went to see my family ants, uncles and cousins.  We have a family house were the guests all stay.  So we joined and had breakfast before they were off for the hockey finally.  They lost.  Honestly the team they played against should have been in the “C” category and not “D”.  My family played in  D.  I was a good game.

When I came back home I went for a walk, vacuumed my floors and typed some poems.  So I’m happy to say that I accomplished my 3 goals.

So today’s goals will mostly be related to work.  Maybe I could set 1 for work, 1 for home responsibilities and 1 for creativity.

1. There is this section were I’m almost done preparing the book intellectually (data).  I think, if I put my heart to it I could almost finish it up.  It depends on how much little visitors I get…
2. At home, I need to clean my bathroom.
3. Creativity wise, put on paper my ideas for my website design.

Now for 3 things I love about my self.

1. I talk less and try to listen to others more.
2. I always smile and greet others with happiness the way my dog greets me when I come home.  (See what I mean?…)
3. Lateley I’ve been more present at home and more focused.

I wonder if I have a lot of reading or research groups coming to the library today… I have no idea.  Usually, on day one I have just a reading group at 3h00, I think.

Yesterday, I didn’t go see Katou’s former owner.  But she was telling me that she lost a bernese from a disease.  It took 4 weeks and he was gone.  It’s an unbalance gland that swells up the muscles and then the just stop functioning or something.  I don’t know how it’s called but anyway It keeps the dog from being able to open his jaw.  So no more barking, playing of eating.  Then they just die.  My bernese is 8 years old and healthy I think.  But I be watching those jaws and doing reiki on her.  I’m not quite ready for her to go yet!!

Well, I’d love to chat some more but it’s my time.

Good day!

Monday, February 23rd 2009.

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Dream, Dream, Dream

I dreamt of an aspect to put on my web site.  How cool is that?  I have to check that out later on… 

I can’t wait to put that web site together.  I’ve put some ideas in OneNote.  I had some more yesterday and this morning.  I’m pretty excited.  I’m putting the themes and items together in my head.  Maybe I should draw some on paper. Like how I want every thing to be displayed.  I want to check some colours too… I have questions though about images I want to use.  I’m wondering if I need permission from the artist or author… I don’t know… I don’t know how it works… My appointment with the web designers is next Monday.  If I decide to hire them I’ll have the whole week to work with them since it will be my march break.  I’m so sure this whole thing is going to work and be so great.  I don’t have a doubt in my mind.

My family’s hockey team are play right now (Sunday, 8h30)  I hope it goes well for them.  If the go to finals I might go see that game since I’m feeling better.

I know I’m infected because of the colour when I spite or blow my nose.  But I’m feeling fine no, aches and pains.

So yesterday I accomplished 2 of my goals :

1. Type my poems (and more than 5)
2. Take a walk.

For the third one it was a scrapbook page.  But I sort of notice that I have no photos really.  But I know it’s my ego trying to justify its self. 

Today’s goals :

1. Type at least 5 poems, again.
2. Take a walk, again.
3. Vacuum my floors.

Now for three things I love about my self :

1. I’m pretty.
2. I’m intelligent.
3. I can be funny too!

There, that wasn’t so hard now was it?

It’s snowing again.  It’s been snowing a whole lot this passed week.  In the whole province of Québec a lot of snow has fallen.

I haven’t share this blog with anyone yet.  I should send the link to my family and friends now that all my other pages are posted.  I was a little shy but I think I’m ready, or almost, for feedback.  I’m the type of person that won’t put my self out there unless I’m sure of my self.  I tend to keep my intimate life very private this strangers or people I hardly know.  I guess I’m afraid of judgment and tend to protect my self to much from the outside.  I’ve been working hard to transform those wall into opening and closing doors.  So I can walk out and let people in…  Hmmm interesting concept… I just typed that going with the flow of the idea.  Neat!

Today I’m visiting Katou’s former mom…  I’ll get some flowers and give her the scrapbook I made.  I pretty sure she be thrilled.  She’s such a nice and generous lady too!  I haven’t seen her in a while.

Well, my cat wants food and I don’t have any.  I have to go shopping, poor Bibitte!

So I’m ready to start off my day…

Sunday, February 22nd 2009

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New goals!!!

 Well, here I am and up to date in posting of these morning pages.  It was hard to keep up.

I’m still not feeling so well.  I’m congested and weak still.  I’m aching all over actually.  I think I’ll sit here all day and type my poems.

My dog Katou is all ready wining cause she can see I’m not moving much.  I should get up and let her go outside.  She adores outdoors.  And she adores me, so, if I don’t go she usually doesn’t either.

I was listning to Sonia Choquette’s Trust your vibes at work CDs and I got a great idea.  She says that in the morning we should get up 15 minutes earlier and set some goals for the day.  She also suggests to say out loud 3 things we love about our selves.  So! In my morning pages I will start with that.  I think it’s a great idea! A combination of two teachings in one action.

Today’s goals :

1. Type at least 5 poems
2. Take at least one walk with my dog
3. Do a scrapbooking page 

After all it is satuday. 

Now 3 things I love about my self :

1. I have lots of great ideas, that for sure!
2. I take my time to do things, so I do them right.
3. I like to think that I’m talented in life!

 I’m most grateful for these qualities!

 Now… for the bitching and moaning part…

Yesterday I went to see my healer.  It’s every Friday.  He worked on my neck.  It’s sore this morning.  It’s a good thing the pain lasts only a day.  I’ll be in a better shape tomorrow.

 My family (brother and cousins) are in a hockey tournement.  Every year I go and see them play.  But last night I was to tired and today too.  I just can’t.  I am missing it though…  I wish I were there.  But I’m too much in pain and weak.  I feel like going back to bed actually.  I just might do that.  I got up took a bath sat here with the blog and now I think I’ll go back to bed…  I havn’t had breakfast either.  Oh! Well! I’m not hungry anyway…

 There’s one more thing I want to do today.  I to take a picture of my scrapbooking pages before I give them away.  I want to be able to go back to them as a model.  My mom is coming over with her camera.  I might publish thoses pages if someone wants to publish such a Dog model scrapbook.  I think it’s a real nice idea.  Or maybe I just put it on my website when I get it done.  I have tones of ideas so I’m not worried, I’ll be doing something with those pages.

 I have a lot of windows in my home.  The sun is just pouring in is and my cat and dog are just lying there in it and enjoying.  And so am I looking at them.  Out there is a beautiful blue sky.  It’s inspiring.

 Well I think I’m ready to stard off the day… going back to bed!  Atchou! and sniff, sniff!

 Saturday, Februaray 21st 2009

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Empty school… All right!

Yesterday I didn’t have the strength to write.  I went to work but shouldn’t have.  I didn’t do anything anyway…  It took me for ever to plug my new computer in.  Not cause I don’t know how but because I have hardly any space and it’s dark.  My colleague tried but he’s fingers were to big.  This computer doesn’t have integrated speakers like my old one.  I’m a little sad.  I used to listen to HayHouse Radio or World puja all the time.  I’ll have to ask the technician to send me some speakers if she has any spare ones.

Well yesterday I was able to post a couple of these morning pages.  I was almost done when my computer went weird on me and dial-up Internet was cutting me off.  So I decided to go to bed.  My cold has me going to bed pretty early.  Last night, I had a runny nose, right now I have clogged sinus and chest.  Today at school there’s a winter day activity so the school will almost be empty.

My colleague was a grandfather for the 7th time yesterday.  He was pretty happy about that.

I have an uncle that is in the hospital.  They don’t know what he has exactly.  It seems he has a lump and/or block in he’s intestines.  With they tests they did they say it’s not cancerous.  He’s the uncle with the grocery store for sale.  My thought is that he doesn’t want to let go of the store.  It used to be his father’s so it’s a family story and sentimental.  But all those mega stores are eating him up.  Plus it’s near a old bridge that needs repair this summer, so they will be closing the road.  He’s in despair and sadness.

My mom is back from the court deliberation.  I don’t know if he was judged as guily or not, I didn’t ask and it’s none of my business.

Well I’d better go, it’s late and my colleague isn’t there to open the library.

See ya!

Friday, February 19th 2009.

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Empty headed…

 Well, last night I went to bed at 7h30 and my alarm went off at 6h40.  I still feel sleepy, weak and have no strength.  It’s a weird virus that makes you sleep.  Yesterday I slept from 12h00 to 2h30.  I didn’t do much.  I took my dog out for two walks, I did one laundry load, a little typing and prepared one meal.

 I’m having a hard time typing… My finger are like going crazy.  Like if I didn’t have control over them.

I have to write my 3 morning pages and this morning my head doesn’t want to think.  It’s like blank…  Witch I think is a good thing, cause that means I don’t have any worries.  I just feel like laying around lazy and playing with my dog and cat.

Wow!  I’m just sitting here looking at my computer with nothing to say.  Its wonderful! My head is empty.

I can write my dreams maybe.  I dreamt of an old boyfriend.  In my dream we were going out together.  I had to get dressed for school.  But all my clothes was either to ugly, to babyish or to small.

Then I dreamt that I went on a trip with my best friend.  I was a spiritual retreat.  I realized when I got there that I didn’t’ t have any clothes.  I had forgotten my suitcase.  She had to lend me some clothes.  She had also prepared a whole show for one of the evenings but I don’t know what it’s about.  Then I saw a girl I knew.  She was very shy.  I ask her if she was still with her boyfriend and she said no, but she did have a new one.  In real life I had always suspected that he was abusing her. Anyway…

I had another dream where I was going bowling with my mother.  We were very late.  She was driving and driving like crazy while eating an ice cream cone.  She was using both lanes right and left doing slalom between cars.  It was scary.

That spiritual retreat in the dream really exists.  I been going there for several years now.  But I don’t know If I’ll make it this year.  I have no money.  Unless a miracle happen I’ll have to pass this summer.  It’s too bad it’s the only vacation that I take.  Plus this year’s theme is the couple.  Now! That should be interesting since I’m single.  Those retreats are usually 4 days.  This one is 6 days, that means 200$ more.  I guess I could pay with the credit card but I hate to spend money  I don’t have.

I’ve decided to stay home for another day.  My heart really isn’t up to it.  It isn’t when I’m healthy and feel good, so imagine when I’m not feeling so well.

I was reading “The artist’s way” last night and the author was talking about, how, as a child we are not encouraged to go the creative way.  That’s how we become a shadow artist she says.  It’s pretty true and for all of us.  Even for our parents I think.  Sometimes people will tend to put the blame on them but it was the same for them.  I had a dream about that last night to.  I saw my former lover paint and create some wicked dark but beautiful art.  I remember seeing a third eye in there somewhere.  He was sculpting out of clay and painting it brown, black and red.

To finish off these 3 pages I’ll go and compose some landing pages for my web site.

Talk to you later…

Wednesday, February 18th 2009.

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Staying hombe… atchou!

 Well, I think I caught  my niece’s cold.  It started right after supper.   I could feel a  bad sore throat and got tired early.  Anyway, by 8h30-9h00 I was in bed.  I woke up a couple of time in the night to blow my nose or put wood in the fire.  At 5h30 I left a message in the voice box to tell them I would be staying home.

 Last night I went to the grocery store, tidied the house and made my self a really good meal.  I had a left over fried rice, added tomatoes and lettuce, that I rolled into a fajitas and ended up in  some kind of sandwich.  It was delicious.

I’m really glade to be home today.  I think I needed it.  I also think the universe sort of answered a wish.  Since 2 or 3 years, when I get sick and stay home, I do stuff to make me forget that I’m sick.  I do fun or funny stuff ; I paint, do scrapbooking  watch my favourite movie when I get to weak.

Today I wish to take my dog for a walk and get some fresh air, type my other morning pages and post them in my blog (some are hand written). I have some home movies to watch to copy them on DVD maybe I could do that.  I feel a little weak though, I might have to nape once in a while.

Yesterday, my mom was leaving with her suitcase cause they were deliberating.  I wonder how that’s going,  how she feels in a situation like that and what she did  after the day was done.  They take away the phones and can’t talk to anyone.  She probably brought  a book to read.  But my mom she moves all the time, always has something to do.  I wonder if she was bored at all.

If I have the time I might check out a couple of sites that offer to build free websites just to see and explore.  That would be cool.  I should open my e-mails too.  I must have loads!

I would really like to clean my house, maybe on the march break.  Today I’m to weak and tired.  But still it’s on my mind and uses up my good energy and out goes the vibration.  It’s the same with my city taxes.  They’re so high I wonder if I’ll manage to keep up.  What if I have to sell this dream home of mine.  Well maybe I could start by having a roommate or something.  I should put a sign up. 

That makes so much stuff to do…  Gee… I find it hard to appreciate my life when I feel so stuck in a space-time.  I really want out of that feeling and fact.  I’m always wishing I would have more support or help, feeling it’s to much for one person alone.  But I know it starts with the help of self.

Moneywise, I’m always ok, and always wondering if next month I’ll be ok.  Those worries are not healthy.  And I know for a fact that I’m not alone.  So… what kind of society are we making and living in?!!  No wonder the kids today have no interest in living what we are leaving them.  It’s always, work, work, work, no money and no funny!  What’s the use? I ask you…

No… I know better…  I’m just complaining this morning to get it all out I suppose.  When we stop looking inside our wounded child and exploring life and it’s wonders it’s all good and magical.  Then we can see the light and go back inside and change the darkness into lightness.

I think I’ll go for a walk outside now to search for that light and bring it back with me inside to light up the day!

Tuesday, February 17th 2009

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