March break

March 12, 2009 celestyna2
Tags: Art, Beliefs, Creativity, Daily goals, Journaling, Scrapbooking, Writings

 

Yesterday I skipped my morning pages.  I visited my parents and stayed overnight.  When I woke, I just got on with my day.

 

This is my first official day of holiday.   Yay!  I had an appointment with the webmasters but it was pushed for a day.  So today I get to do more creating.

 

Today’s goals :

1. Check my e-mails.
2. Check out some stuff for the web site (disclaimer, text for the landings pages, etc.).
3. Type some poems.  I’ve counted them, I have 97.
4. Take a walk with Katou.  I should go to the park.
5. Do yoga and meditating

 

Now for the qualities I like in me :

6. I’m determined.
7. I’m precise when I do stuff.
8. I do what I say and follow my engagements.

 

The sky is so blue it’s inviting!  There is absolutely no wind.  Yesterday, It was very windy ; a glacial north wind.  It may not stay like this though.  Sometimes, right around this hour it picks up.

 

Yesterday I spent the day doing scrapbooking.  I had made a calendar in January and hadn’t completed it.  Yesterday I chose pictures, cut them and glued them.  I took me a whole day or almost…  After, choosing them and printing them I had a headache.  I came back home, built a fire, fed the cat and took a bath.  My headache was growing into a migraine.  I was starting to feel nauseous.  Then I had a flash, an insight.  I was to much in my head, using my intellectual self.  I needed to go into the body and emotional body more.  So I put on a meditation CD that directs you into the body when it is in pain.  The meditation is call “The healing meditation”.  Before it was done, I was able to relax enough to fall asleep.  So, I stopped the CD and slept for awhile.  When I woke, I still could feel a rigidness to the neck but at least I didn’t have the headache anymore.

Then I had an other insight.  That’s why I use go get migraines all time.  Was trying so hard to please others and thinking all time what I could do to please them that I lived for them in my head.  I wasn’t enough in my heart and in my soul.  I was outside my self.  I discovered this from realizing that I lived alone for the past 4-5 years and hardly got any headaches at all.  So, if I ever find my self in a relationship again, I must not do the same mistakes again.  Live more fully in my bodies and for me, with consideration for others.

See…  That’s what I mean by spirituality (section : About).  It’s learning more about thyself.  This is it and it’s simple.  I just love these aha! moments.

 

Now I’m all excited about starting the day.  What a difference with when I work.  I have to think of something and do something about that part of my life.  I’m creative enough, I’ll find something.  But I’m not going to think too hard…

 

I’ve got to go!  I can’t wait to start singing, dancing and playing my day!

 

Monday, March 2nd 2009

 

Entry Filed under: Creative journaling

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