Scrapbooking workshop

This morning I have a scrapbooking workshop.  I haven’t done any for a while.  Well, since last month’s calendar workshop.  Today we are doing a photo cube.  The Lady giving the workshop is a representative of “close to my heart” products.  I’ve only been to two workshops.  I really like them.

By best friend was suppose to come but she changed her mind.  I was a little disappointed since I haven’t seen her since the last workshop.  We usually see each other every week.  She got busy and with work.  I got busy with those poems and my website.  I miss her and spending time talking with her.  Like if we had grew apart a bit.  Like if the universe had put some other things and people on routes.  All is well and in perfect and divine order.

I dreamt of her last night.  I dreamt the I was somewhere in the world in an English based language country with her and her 4 or 5 year old daughter.  The were accompanying me on my tour.  I think she was my agent or something of the sort.  We were back stage and someone came to get her daughter to look after during the show.  The had a day care for the children that we traveled with, witch I think is a marvellous idea.  Her daughter left complaining about a baby that was going to cry again during the whole show and didn’t really wanted to be in the same room.  So, my job was to answer question people had in the audience.  And I had a set of headphones and mic cause it was going to be broadcasted live on radio simultaneously.  So the first guy come on stage and asks his question.  I did not understand a word, except for “dolphin”.  So I told the crowd I was French and to talk slow.  So the guy replies that he’s good.  The crowd started to laugh because it was obvious  that I didn’t understand a thing and neither did the crowd.  I said :”Actually, no I didn’t understand a thing.  Did you want to know about the symbolism of dolphins?…”.  He said: “yes…”.  So I replied : “Well I didn’t work with dolphins a whole lot so, I’ll share what I know.  Dolphins are a special creatures with special energy.”  Then a women raised her hand excitedly and stood and came running down the aisle.  I said : “Come on down, the price is right…”.  And the crowd started to laugh.  Then my alarm clock went off and I woke up.

Today’s goals :

1. Have fun!
2. Have fun!
3. Have fun!

Here are 3 things I love about myself :

1. I’m grateful towards other people.
2. I’m sincere.
3. I’m integral.

Well, I’ve got to get ready…

Saturday, February 28th 2009

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Chilly Monday

 Hello!

This morning I put my alarm clock on earlier so I don’t feel as rushed in the morning.  So I took my time to awake.  I feel sleepy but less in a rush.  As I woke I realized how chilly it was.  So I put wood in the fire and turned up the heat in my bedroom and closed the door.  And then I started to think of summer.  I’m already anxious to see the hot summer sun come in through my windows.  It would be wonderful to be able to lay in the sun for a couple of hours…  Nice!  In stead… I have snow packed up against my window.    Actually,  I’ve never seen the snow packed so high against that window.  I’ve been living here for almost 5 years.

It’s weird, I have hardly anything to say this morning.  I could tell you it’s Monday and that I don’t feel like working but since I got up earlier I don’t feel it as much.  And it’s not that I don’t want to work, it’s more like it’s too early for me.  If it was for me I would show up at 9h00 or 9h30.  Or work from home, that would be just great!  I could be here with my beloved dog and cat and take care of my home.   And I do believe I will do that some day.  Meanwhile, I’m dreaming it.  Nothing wrong with creative thoughts right?

Yesterday I was feeling better so I went to see my family ants, uncles and cousins.  We have a family house were the guests all stay.  So we joined and had breakfast before they were off for the hockey finally.  They lost.  Honestly the team they played against should have been in the “C” category and not “D”.  My family played in  D.  I was a good game.

When I came back home I went for a walk, vacuumed my floors and typed some poems.  So I’m happy to say that I accomplished my 3 goals.

So today’s goals will mostly be related to work.  Maybe I could set 1 for work, 1 for home responsibilities and 1 for creativity.

1. There is this section were I’m almost done preparing the book intellectually (data).  I think, if I put my heart to it I could almost finish it up.  It depends on how much little visitors I get…
2. At home, I need to clean my bathroom.
3. Creativity wise, put on paper my ideas for my website design.

Now for 3 things I love about my self.

1. I talk less and try to listen to others more.
2. I always smile and greet others with happiness the way my dog greets me when I come home.  (See what I mean?…)
3. Lateley I’ve been more present at home and more focused.

I wonder if I have a lot of reading or research groups coming to the library today… I have no idea.  Usually, on day one I have just a reading group at 3h00, I think.

Yesterday, I didn’t go see Katou’s former owner.  But she was telling me that she lost a bernese from a disease.  It took 4 weeks and he was gone.  It’s an unbalance gland that swells up the muscles and then the just stop functioning or something.  I don’t know how it’s called but anyway It keeps the dog from being able to open his jaw.  So no more barking, playing of eating.  Then they just die.  My bernese is 8 years old and healthy I think.  But I be watching those jaws and doing reiki on her.  I’m not quite ready for her to go yet!!

Well, I’d love to chat some more but it’s my time.

Good day!

Monday, February 23rd 2009.

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Dream, Dream, Dream

I dreamt of an aspect to put on my web site.  How cool is that?  I have to check that out later on… 

I can’t wait to put that web site together.  I’ve put some ideas in OneNote.  I had some more yesterday and this morning.  I’m pretty excited.  I’m putting the themes and items together in my head.  Maybe I should draw some on paper. Like how I want every thing to be displayed.  I want to check some colours too… I have questions though about images I want to use.  I’m wondering if I need permission from the artist or author… I don’t know… I don’t know how it works… My appointment with the web designers is next Monday.  If I decide to hire them I’ll have the whole week to work with them since it will be my march break.  I’m so sure this whole thing is going to work and be so great.  I don’t have a doubt in my mind.

My family’s hockey team are play right now (Sunday, 8h30)  I hope it goes well for them.  If the go to finals I might go see that game since I’m feeling better.

I know I’m infected because of the colour when I spite or blow my nose.  But I’m feeling fine no, aches and pains.

So yesterday I accomplished 2 of my goals :

1. Type my poems (and more than 5)
2. Take a walk.

For the third one it was a scrapbook page.  But I sort of notice that I have no photos really.  But I know it’s my ego trying to justify its self. 

Today’s goals :

1. Type at least 5 poems, again.
2. Take a walk, again.
3. Vacuum my floors.

Now for three things I love about my self :

1. I’m pretty.
2. I’m intelligent.
3. I can be funny too!

There, that wasn’t so hard now was it?

It’s snowing again.  It’s been snowing a whole lot this passed week.  In the whole province of Québec a lot of snow has fallen.

I haven’t share this blog with anyone yet.  I should send the link to my family and friends now that all my other pages are posted.  I was a little shy but I think I’m ready, or almost, for feedback.  I’m the type of person that won’t put my self out there unless I’m sure of my self.  I tend to keep my intimate life very private this strangers or people I hardly know.  I guess I’m afraid of judgment and tend to protect my self to much from the outside.  I’ve been working hard to transform those wall into opening and closing doors.  So I can walk out and let people in…  Hmmm interesting concept… I just typed that going with the flow of the idea.  Neat!

Today I’m visiting Katou’s former mom…  I’ll get some flowers and give her the scrapbook I made.  I pretty sure she be thrilled.  She’s such a nice and generous lady too!  I haven’t seen her in a while.

Well, my cat wants food and I don’t have any.  I have to go shopping, poor Bibitte!

So I’m ready to start off my day…

Sunday, February 22nd 2009

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New goals!!!

 Well, here I am and up to date in posting of these morning pages.  It was hard to keep up.

I’m still not feeling so well.  I’m congested and weak still.  I’m aching all over actually.  I think I’ll sit here all day and type my poems.

My dog Katou is all ready wining cause she can see I’m not moving much.  I should get up and let her go outside.  She adores outdoors.  And she adores me, so, if I don’t go she usually doesn’t either.

I was listning to Sonia Choquette’s Trust your vibes at work CDs and I got a great idea.  She says that in the morning we should get up 15 minutes earlier and set some goals for the day.  She also suggests to say out loud 3 things we love about our selves.  So! In my morning pages I will start with that.  I think it’s a great idea! A combination of two teachings in one action.

Today’s goals :

1. Type at least 5 poems
2. Take at least one walk with my dog
3. Do a scrapbooking page 

After all it is satuday. 

Now 3 things I love about my self :

1. I have lots of great ideas, that for sure!
2. I take my time to do things, so I do them right.
3. I like to think that I’m talented in life!

 I’m most grateful for these qualities!

 Now… for the bitching and moaning part…

Yesterday I went to see my healer.  It’s every Friday.  He worked on my neck.  It’s sore this morning.  It’s a good thing the pain lasts only a day.  I’ll be in a better shape tomorrow.

 My family (brother and cousins) are in a hockey tournement.  Every year I go and see them play.  But last night I was to tired and today too.  I just can’t.  I am missing it though…  I wish I were there.  But I’m too much in pain and weak.  I feel like going back to bed actually.  I just might do that.  I got up took a bath sat here with the blog and now I think I’ll go back to bed…  I havn’t had breakfast either.  Oh! Well! I’m not hungry anyway…

 There’s one more thing I want to do today.  I to take a picture of my scrapbooking pages before I give them away.  I want to be able to go back to them as a model.  My mom is coming over with her camera.  I might publish thoses pages if someone wants to publish such a Dog model scrapbook.  I think it’s a real nice idea.  Or maybe I just put it on my website when I get it done.  I have tones of ideas so I’m not worried, I’ll be doing something with those pages.

 I have a lot of windows in my home.  The sun is just pouring in is and my cat and dog are just lying there in it and enjoying.  And so am I looking at them.  Out there is a beautiful blue sky.  It’s inspiring.

 Well I think I’m ready to stard off the day… going back to bed!  Atchou! and sniff, sniff!

 Saturday, Februaray 21st 2009

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Empty school… All right!

Yesterday I didn’t have the strength to write.  I went to work but shouldn’t have.  I didn’t do anything anyway…  It took me for ever to plug my new computer in.  Not cause I don’t know how but because I have hardly any space and it’s dark.  My colleague tried but he’s fingers were to big.  This computer doesn’t have integrated speakers like my old one.  I’m a little sad.  I used to listen to HayHouse Radio or World puja all the time.  I’ll have to ask the technician to send me some speakers if she has any spare ones.

Well yesterday I was able to post a couple of these morning pages.  I was almost done when my computer went weird on me and dial-up Internet was cutting me off.  So I decided to go to bed.  My cold has me going to bed pretty early.  Last night, I had a runny nose, right now I have clogged sinus and chest.  Today at school there’s a winter day activity so the school will almost be empty.

My colleague was a grandfather for the 7th time yesterday.  He was pretty happy about that.

I have an uncle that is in the hospital.  They don’t know what he has exactly.  It seems he has a lump and/or block in he’s intestines.  With they tests they did they say it’s not cancerous.  He’s the uncle with the grocery store for sale.  My thought is that he doesn’t want to let go of the store.  It used to be his father’s so it’s a family story and sentimental.  But all those mega stores are eating him up.  Plus it’s near a old bridge that needs repair this summer, so they will be closing the road.  He’s in despair and sadness.

My mom is back from the court deliberation.  I don’t know if he was judged as guily or not, I didn’t ask and it’s none of my business.

Well I’d better go, it’s late and my colleague isn’t there to open the library.

See ya!

Friday, February 19th 2009.

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Empty headed…

 Well, last night I went to bed at 7h30 and my alarm went off at 6h40.  I still feel sleepy, weak and have no strength.  It’s a weird virus that makes you sleep.  Yesterday I slept from 12h00 to 2h30.  I didn’t do much.  I took my dog out for two walks, I did one laundry load, a little typing and prepared one meal.

 I’m having a hard time typing… My finger are like going crazy.  Like if I didn’t have control over them.

I have to write my 3 morning pages and this morning my head doesn’t want to think.  It’s like blank…  Witch I think is a good thing, cause that means I don’t have any worries.  I just feel like laying around lazy and playing with my dog and cat.

Wow!  I’m just sitting here looking at my computer with nothing to say.  Its wonderful! My head is empty.

I can write my dreams maybe.  I dreamt of an old boyfriend.  In my dream we were going out together.  I had to get dressed for school.  But all my clothes was either to ugly, to babyish or to small.

Then I dreamt that I went on a trip with my best friend.  I was a spiritual retreat.  I realized when I got there that I didn’t’ t have any clothes.  I had forgotten my suitcase.  She had to lend me some clothes.  She had also prepared a whole show for one of the evenings but I don’t know what it’s about.  Then I saw a girl I knew.  She was very shy.  I ask her if she was still with her boyfriend and she said no, but she did have a new one.  In real life I had always suspected that he was abusing her. Anyway…

I had another dream where I was going bowling with my mother.  We were very late.  She was driving and driving like crazy while eating an ice cream cone.  She was using both lanes right and left doing slalom between cars.  It was scary.

That spiritual retreat in the dream really exists.  I been going there for several years now.  But I don’t know If I’ll make it this year.  I have no money.  Unless a miracle happen I’ll have to pass this summer.  It’s too bad it’s the only vacation that I take.  Plus this year’s theme is the couple.  Now! That should be interesting since I’m single.  Those retreats are usually 4 days.  This one is 6 days, that means 200$ more.  I guess I could pay with the credit card but I hate to spend money  I don’t have.

I’ve decided to stay home for another day.  My heart really isn’t up to it.  It isn’t when I’m healthy and feel good, so imagine when I’m not feeling so well.

I was reading “The artist’s way” last night and the author was talking about, how, as a child we are not encouraged to go the creative way.  That’s how we become a shadow artist she says.  It’s pretty true and for all of us.  Even for our parents I think.  Sometimes people will tend to put the blame on them but it was the same for them.  I had a dream about that last night to.  I saw my former lover paint and create some wicked dark but beautiful art.  I remember seeing a third eye in there somewhere.  He was sculpting out of clay and painting it brown, black and red.

To finish off these 3 pages I’ll go and compose some landing pages for my web site.

Talk to you later…

Wednesday, February 18th 2009.

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Staying hombe… atchou!

 Well, I think I caught  my niece’s cold.  It started right after supper.   I could feel a  bad sore throat and got tired early.  Anyway, by 8h30-9h00 I was in bed.  I woke up a couple of time in the night to blow my nose or put wood in the fire.  At 5h30 I left a message in the voice box to tell them I would be staying home.

 Last night I went to the grocery store, tidied the house and made my self a really good meal.  I had a left over fried rice, added tomatoes and lettuce, that I rolled into a fajitas and ended up in  some kind of sandwich.  It was delicious.

I’m really glade to be home today.  I think I needed it.  I also think the universe sort of answered a wish.  Since 2 or 3 years, when I get sick and stay home, I do stuff to make me forget that I’m sick.  I do fun or funny stuff ; I paint, do scrapbooking  watch my favourite movie when I get to weak.

Today I wish to take my dog for a walk and get some fresh air, type my other morning pages and post them in my blog (some are hand written). I have some home movies to watch to copy them on DVD maybe I could do that.  I feel a little weak though, I might have to nape once in a while.

Yesterday, my mom was leaving with her suitcase cause they were deliberating.  I wonder how that’s going,  how she feels in a situation like that and what she did  after the day was done.  They take away the phones and can’t talk to anyone.  She probably brought  a book to read.  But my mom she moves all the time, always has something to do.  I wonder if she was bored at all.

If I have the time I might check out a couple of sites that offer to build free websites just to see and explore.  That would be cool.  I should open my e-mails too.  I must have loads!

I would really like to clean my house, maybe on the march break.  Today I’m to weak and tired.  But still it’s on my mind and uses up my good energy and out goes the vibration.  It’s the same with my city taxes.  They’re so high I wonder if I’ll manage to keep up.  What if I have to sell this dream home of mine.  Well maybe I could start by having a roommate or something.  I should put a sign up. 

That makes so much stuff to do…  Gee… I find it hard to appreciate my life when I feel so stuck in a space-time.  I really want out of that feeling and fact.  I’m always wishing I would have more support or help, feeling it’s to much for one person alone.  But I know it starts with the help of self.

Moneywise, I’m always ok, and always wondering if next month I’ll be ok.  Those worries are not healthy.  And I know for a fact that I’m not alone.  So… what kind of society are we making and living in?!!  No wonder the kids today have no interest in living what we are leaving them.  It’s always, work, work, work, no money and no funny!  What’s the use? I ask you…

No… I know better…  I’m just complaining this morning to get it all out I suppose.  When we stop looking inside our wounded child and exploring life and it’s wonders it’s all good and magical.  Then we can see the light and go back inside and change the darkness into lightness.

I think I’ll go for a walk outside now to search for that light and bring it back with me inside to light up the day!

Tuesday, February 17th 2009

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Sweet Sunday!

Today’s morning pages are more like noon pages.  I’m babysitting my niece and she’s got a cold.  So as soon as I heard her toss, turn and cough I got up. 

We made a Valentine’s card for her parents and now she’s painting.  She’s a very talented artiste already and she’s only 5.

I wanted to see Katou’s former mistress but she got a bad cold too.  So I’ll be going next week.

I don’t know how much I will accomplish today with my niece.  But it’s more than fine.  I get lonely sometimes.  But with a child around I get to live from my inner child’s perspective.  I haven’t taken care of her much lately.  I’m glad my niece is here to remind me that.  After painting she wants to go to the park even if it’s full of snow.  And that’s exactly what we will do!!!

Yesterday I’ve made an appointment with a website conceptor (Sorry I don’t know how it’s called in English) to see what I want and evaluate the cost.  I don’t know anything about managing a website.  With my job as a librarian I’m good doing researches but that’s it.  I guess I have a lot of question for them.  Depending on the answers and how complicated it will seem.  Maybe I’ll be able to manage it myself, but I doubt it.

My niece went back home around 4h00.  So there was no time to pamper myself.  Oh! Well… some other time.  It’s not like I don’t have some time to my self.  It just depends on how I decide to spend it.

Sunday, February 15^th 2009

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Darn Mondays…

 Monday Morning… pfff…  I don’t feel like going to work.   But that’s the story of my life…  Once I get there it’s really all right.  But It’s to wake up and getting out of bed and getting prepared.   If only we could arrive when we are ready, on our terms.   I would make more interesting for everyone.

Well, here I am trying OneNote.  From what I read it sounds great.  You can be more creative using this.  I was reading all about it last night before I went to bed.

Yesterday, my niece and I went to the park after painting.  It was a lot of fun.  I let go of the adult in me and live through a child’s heart for an hour.  We slide on the slide, then in the snow down a hill then on a great big patch of ice.  We swung on the swings and played on other attractions.  We walked and talked.  My dog was really excited too.  She ran all over the place and stuck out her but showing us she too wanted to have fun.

Two weeks until march break.  I hope I get to do most of the thing I’m planning.  I always seem to plan more in my head that I can actually accomplish.  Then I’m desappointed a little.  I want to type my old morning pages to post them so I can post these ones.  I want to work on poems and type them also ; some I will leave in poems some I want to put music to and turn them into a song.  Some poems I’ll leave them to be read, and some other, I’ll record in studio cause the sound better heard.  And like I just said some will sound pretty good in a song.  So I’ll be working on that and the web site I want to do.  That is with all the cleaning and decluttering I’d like to do.   If I have time I might do a little scrapbooking or some other art work.

Well, I got up late…  My morning pages aren’t done but I don’t want to be late either.

I dreamt that I had a baby and I didn’t even know I was pregnant.  The other night I dreamt that Elvis and Anne Shirley fell in love instantly.  When they got together, she transformed into Sissy Spacek.  Funny!

I have to go…argh…  I don’t feel like working.  I woke up  with a clogged nose, sneezing and blowing my nose.  I hope I didn’t catch my niece’s cold.

Monday, February 16th 2009

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Sweet sunday!

Today’s morning pages are more like noon pages.  I’m babysitting my niece and she’s got a cold.  So as soon as I heard her toss, turn and cough I got up. 

We made a Valentine’s card for her parents and now she’s painting.  She’s a very talented artiste already and she’s only 5.

I wanted to see Katou’s former mistress but she got a bad cold too.  So I’ll be going next week.

I don’t know how much I will accomplish today with my niece.  But it’s more than fine.  I get lonely sometimes.  But with a child around I get to live from my inner child’s perspective.  I haven’t taken care of her much lately.  I’m glad she’s here.  After painting she wants to go to the park even if it’s full of snow.  And I it exactly what we will do!!!

Yesterday I’ve made an appointment with a website conceptor (Sorry I don’t know how it’s called in English) to see what I want and evaluate the cost.  I don’t know anything about managing a website.  With my job as a librarian I’m good doing researches but that’s it.  I guess I have a lot of question for them.  Depending on the answers and how complicated it will seem.  Maybe I’ll be able to manage it myself, but I doubt it.

My niece went back home around 4h00.  So there was no time to pamper myself.  Oh! Well… some other time.  It’s not like I don’t have some time to my self.  It just depends on how I decide to spend it.

Sunday, February 15^th 2009

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