I started the day by writing two creative emails ; one in English and one in French.  Those emails are going to authors to whom I ask permission to put book covers on me website.  I felt inspired…  It was there in my head.  So, might as well put them on paper right?

 

I’m going back to work this morning.  To awake is tough.  I didn’t have a very good night sleep.  I woke up every half hour or so.  I didn’t feel rested at all.  But still il was all right.  Knowing that there wouldn’t be any students and that I would be productive and effective made it easier.

 

Yesterday I went to a play.  It was the reproduction of the Sound of music.  The main character : Maria as played by Patti Cambell.  She was perfect!!! She could play in those big production anytime and would be acclaimed.  She looks like her, sings like her and plays like Julie Andrews.   Just unbelievable!

 

Well, here are my 3 goals for the day :

1. Post the 3 last pages on my blog.
2. Home responsibilities : do 1 laundry.
3. Creativity : Find pictures for some scrapbooking calendar and box I made.

 

Here are 3 things I love about my self :

4. I remain calm in urgent matters.
5. I love to try new things.
6. I eat healthier than before.

 

Boy! That was difficult.  Nothing was coming up.  I had to think a lot.

 

Well I’ve got to go all ready.  I woke up late this morning.  Later than usual anyway…

 

Monday, March 9th 2009

I’m on holiday and hardly have the notion of time…  Isn’t that wonderful!  I love this! 

I met with the website creator.  I’m waiting for the quotation.  He tolled me it would take about a month to create such a site.  So if I do it my self, it would take me for ever.   So I’m pretty excited about that.  I think I will engage him no matter the price.  You see my dream is to have a books store.  It would be a book shop/boutique with tools to help people in there own grow.  But I don’t have the money.  So I have the choice to engage a lot of money in me dream store or a little money in a website.  For now I prefer engaging a little in the web site.

I’m right now at my parents.  My aunt is visiting for a couple of days.  I love this energy.  They are painting and doing creative art.  I’m working on the computer.  I love this aunt.  She’s soft, loving, caring and giving.  She loves animals and cherish them with all of her big heart.  Together we love creating art, watching movies, reading little bits of articles or certain sections of books and reading prayers.

So today’s goals are :

1. Scan pictures and book covers
2. Spend some time outside
3. Not resonate with what is said around me, stay in my own center.

Some time I find intolerable what is said or the way some things are said around me.  I become intolerant.  I need to not engage judgmental thoughts..  That’s a great practice.

This week I bought my self a gift.  It’s mostly because of the site and the products I want to create and put  on the site.

I bought my self an other gift too.  I went shopping and bought a part of jeans and blouse.  Last time I bought my self a pair of jeans it was about 5 years ago. 

Ok.  3 things I love about my self.

1. I’m a very good observer.
2. I’m patient
3. I’m jovial

Went I enumerate these qualities, I should always start by “I love that I’m…”.  When I’m done I will say them out loud.

So I will leave this at that for today.

Thursday, March 5fth 2009

Yesterday I skipped my morning pages.  I visited my parents and stayed overnight.  When I woke, I just got on with my day.

 

This is my first official day of holiday.   Yay!  I had an appointment with the webmasters but it was pushed for a day.  So today I get to do more creating.

 

Today’s goals :

1. Check my e-mails.
2. Check out some stuff for the web site (disclaimer, text for the landings pages, etc.).
3. Type some poems.  I’ve counted them, I have 97.
4. Take a walk with Katou.  I should go to the park.
5. Do yoga and meditating

 

Now for the qualities I like in me :

6. I’m determined.
7. I’m precise when I do stuff.
8. I do what I say and follow my engagements.

 

The sky is so blue it’s inviting!  There is absolutely no wind.  Yesterday, It was very windy ; a glacial north wind.  It may not stay like this though.  Sometimes, right around this hour it picks up.

 

Yesterday I spent the day doing scrapbooking.  I had made a calendar in January and hadn’t completed it.  Yesterday I chose pictures, cut them and glued them.  I took me a whole day or almost…  After, choosing them and printing them I had a headache.  I came back home, built a fire, fed the cat and took a bath.  My headache was growing into a migraine.  I was starting to feel nauseous.  Then I had a flash, an insight.  I was to much in my head, using my intellectual self.  I needed to go into the body and emotional body more.  So I put on a meditation CD that directs you into the body when it is in pain.  The meditation is call “The healing meditation”.  Before it was done, I was able to relax enough to fall asleep.  So, I stopped the CD and slept for awhile.  When I woke, I still could feel a rigidness to the neck but at least I didn’t have the headache anymore.

Then I had an other insight.  That’s why I use go get migraines all time.  Was trying so hard to please others and thinking all time what I could do to please them that I lived for them in my head.  I wasn’t enough in my heart and in my soul.  I was outside my self.  I discovered this from realizing that I lived alone for the past 4-5 years and hardly got any headaches at all.  So, if I ever find my self in a relationship again, I must not do the same mistakes again.  Live more fully in my bodies and for me, with consideration for others.

See…  That’s what I mean by spirituality (section : About).  It’s learning more about thyself.  This is it and it’s simple.  I just love these aha! moments.

 

Now I’m all excited about starting the day.  What a difference with when I work.  I have to think of something and do something about that part of my life.  I’m creative enough, I’ll find something.  But I’m not going to think too hard…

 

I’ve got to go!  I can’t wait to start singing, dancing and playing my day!

 

Monday, March 2nd 2009

 

This morning I have a scrapbooking workshop.  I haven’t done any for a while.  Well, since last month’s calendar workshop.  Today we are doing a photo cube.  The Lady giving the workshop is a representative of “close to my heart” products.  I’ve only been to two workshops.  I really like them.

By best friend was suppose to come but she changed her mind.  I was a little disappointed since I haven’t seen her since the last workshop.  We usually see each other every week.  She got busy and with work.  I got busy with those poems and my website.  I miss her and spending time talking with her.  Like if we had grew apart a bit.  Like if the universe had put some other things and people on routes.  All is well and in perfect and divine order.

I dreamt of her last night.  I dreamt the I was somewhere in the world in an English based language country with her and her 4 or 5 year old daughter.  The were accompanying me on my tour.  I think she was my agent or something of the sort.  We were back stage and someone came to get her daughter to look after during the show.  The had a day care for the children that we traveled with, witch I think is a marvellous idea.  Her daughter left complaining about a baby that was going to cry again during the whole show and didn’t really wanted to be in the same room.  So, my job was to answer question people had in the audience.  And I had a set of headphones and mic cause it was going to be broadcasted live on radio simultaneously.  So the first guy come on stage and asks his question.  I did not understand a word, except for “dolphin”.  So I told the crowd I was French and to talk slow.  So the guy replies that he’s good.  The crowd started to laugh because it was obvious  that I didn’t understand a thing and neither did the crowd.  I said :”Actually, no I didn’t understand a thing.  Did you want to know about the symbolism of dolphins?…”.  He said: “yes…”.  So I replied : “Well I didn’t work with dolphins a whole lot so, I’ll share what I know.  Dolphins are a special creatures with special energy.”  Then a women raised her hand excitedly and stood and came running down the aisle.  I said : “Come on down, the price is right…”.  And the crowd started to laugh.  Then my alarm clock went off and I woke up.

Today’s goals :

1. Have fun!
2. Have fun!
3. Have fun!

Here are 3 things I love about myself :

1. I’m grateful towards other people.
2. I’m sincere.
3. I’m integral.

Well, I’ve got to get ready…

Saturday, February 28th 2009

Today’s goals :

1. Home responsibilities : vacuum my basement

2. Creativity : Check some more stuff for the web site

3. Do exercise : A walk if I can (weather), yoga, stretching etc.

3 things I love about my self

1. I’m happy.

2. I’m healthy.

3. I’m wealthy.

Being wealthy or rich for me starts with being rich inside. You have to notice it, be grateful for it, work with it, grow with it, recognize it and then feel it. It took me almost a year to fully integrate it and it just the beginning of the end. So I’m not wealthy in terms of money but inside me, my light and resources are more than rich they are abundant. With Louise Hay CD I learnt to visualize a pipeline coming in and a pipeline going out. So, it a circuit, a circulation of exchange of energy. Just like are bodies.

Boy…I think I got up to early. I’m feeling sleepy again. I hope this virus is done. I was blowing my nose for 45 min. a while ago. Everyday, I’m think ok how much stuff can there possibly in there, it must be over soon. Everyday I think ok this must be the last day I feel so drowsy. But I can feel it… Today is the day… cause I’m on march break. And that is what’ve decided, there!

I want to check my e-mails today. With dial-up it will take a while but I don’t have choice, right? It’s either I don’t look at them at all or I put my patience in practice.

I have to put wood in that woodstove, it’s getting chilly, especially with that wind. I’ll be able to benefit for that heat I love all week. That is so perfect. I love that warmth. Yesterday, I had a 2 loads delivered. It’s cedar. The smell is just a blessing to my nostrils. It so soothing, warm and calming. I can smell through the whole house. It’s a good thing I love the smell of it. It smells like winter. No that’s a funny thing to say. But it does, really. Today I think I’m going to light candles and burn encens to celebrate my first day of holiday.

Tomorrow I have a scrapbooking workshop. That will be fun.

Friday, February 27th 2009

Well, yesterday morning I called in sick.  I had to sleep.  So I went back to bed and woke at 11:00.  Then, I  went to work.  Around 2 pm I got tired again.  I’ve been feeling tired and weak for a week.  It must be almost over…

I was still able to accomplish my first 2 goals.

Today’s goals will be :

1. Work : Start the new section in my book preparation.
2. Home responsibilities : Put away some sewing materiel  in my new cupboard.
3. Creativity : Work on the web sit design + ask for some legal advice.

I have to ask for advice for a couple of my ideas for the web site.  I was wondering if I want to put in a reference (book or author) if I need permission from the creator.   And can I put a link to a book store so the surfer can buy the book I’m referring to.  It’s all legal advice.

I think I know just the right person to ask.  I met this spiritual lawyer in a retreat center.  He actually crated a publishing house in he’s home.  So I think he would be the perfect person to ask.

Next week is my march break.  I have my appointment with the web masters on Monday.  I really hope we can begin right away.  I’m pretty excited!  I still have all kinds of ideas coming in.  My latest one is creating  a deck of cards with short poems.  That would be awesome!  But still… I would like to illustrate my own cards.  I need time for that.  If I could launch that site and see hoe it goes financially after maybe I would be able to eventually take some time off my job.  I love my job, don’t get me wrong.  I chose that career and I’m grateful for having this job.  It’s just that it doesn’t suite me anymore.  I could create all day.  Wow!

That site though will be demanding in time and energy.  I would have to scan a lot of covers and summaries to put on that web site.  And I should start soon.  I guess I’ll have to put that in my daily goals.

Speaking of scanning… I also have to scan some pictures and make a home video for our family reunion this summer.  That will also take a while.

I’m writing this sitting on my bed.  I have 2 big windows and all I see when I look outside is cedar trees.  It snowed last night and those cedar trees are full of beautiful white snow.  With the sun rising, the change of color, the snow , everything is so beautiful.  Plus it’s only zero and no wind witch make’s it perfect since it’s not so cold.  It’s the kind of day you wish you were home to take plenty of walks and play in the snow.  It will change though, they are calling for winds up to 60 k/h, -20, and up to 10 to 20 cm of snow.  It will be ugly on those roads.

I just love the music I put on every morning when I do these morning pages.  I listen to it falling asleep too.  It’s so aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh! Calming.  It’s Louis Lachance’s Harmon chakra.  I really relax to it.

Hey I forgot the 3 things I love about my self :

1. I learnt to stand my ground and not be influenced by others fears and recommendations.
2. I love the way I live.
3. I love my body.

I noticed that some of these things I say I love about my self in that particular moment.  For instance, today I love my body but maybe tomorrow if I’m in ache and pains I won’t love it so much.  I think that in life we have to accept the highs and the lows and what ever is in between.  Those are emotional experiments and make us who we are.  I also learnt that everything is a passage, temporary.

Well, there I go off to work!

Good day!

Thursday, February 26th 2009

I slept really well.  I really needed it. Yesterday afternoon I could feel a little fog in my head.  I wasn’t able to concentrate and was very slow in action.

I’m still congested.  I think it take about 10 days without medication to heal sinusitis and a bronchitis.  I’ve done it before.

Yesterday my parents came for a visit and brought me a piece of furniture that my ant gave me.  It’s like a TV armoire.  There’s cupboards, shelves and two drawers.  I’ll be putting my sowing stuff in there.  It will be pretty practical.  And I’m pretty happy that I washed all up and put the stuff in already.  Usually I procrastinate and wait.  I did quite a bit yesterday when I got home ;  I tidied my guest room, fold some laundry and washed my humidifier.

 That brings me to yesterday’s goals.  At school I was able to finish up those books but not start to brainstorm my ideas for the exhibit.  I was not able to check out the web designing either.  It’s perfect though cause I did more at home.

So, today’s goals are :

1. Work : Start a new section in the book treatments + prepare new magazine arrivals + if I have time left, brainstorm for the exhibit.
2. Home responsibilities : watch some home videos. (I’m supposed to put together a home video for our family reunion this summer.)
3. Creativity : web design or landing pages.

Now 3 things I love about my self :

1. I listen to my body’s needs.
2. These days I’m well organized.
3. I open my mind to new possibilities and opportunities.

Well’ I hardly have anything else to say.  I think the intuitive poem energy poem writing is back.  I haven’t been listening though ; either to occupied or to tired.  It’s something that will pass so I should take the time to listen.

I can feel inflammation in my throat and neck.  I think I need more sleep.  I not sure if it’s tiredness or weakness but I do feel sort of lethargic or lazy.

Well it’s my time.  I going to get ready for work.  This morning, I would definitely stay home if I could.  Maybe I don’t listen to well to my body’s needs after all.

Wednesday,  February 25th 2009

Well, in general I’m feeling better but my sinuses and chest are still congested.  I am able to blow or spite it out.  It’s a good thing, otherwise I would have pneumonia.

I pretty proud of my self.  I was able to accomplish yesterday’s goal.  I just have a couple of books to prepare to accomplish no one’s goal.  It was fairly quiet yesterday.  It should be quiet today too.  I love those days, I’m productive.

Here are today’s goals :

1. Work : Finish off those couple of books and start to assemble some ideas for a book exhibit I have in may.
2. Home responsibility : Clean my humidifier.
3. Creativity : Continue to put on paper my web design and/or landing pages.

And now for 3 thing I love about my self :

1. I’m willing to stay open to new ideas or teaching.
2. I love to learn.
3. My grace

It’s always a little longer to find those qualities.  I have too think about it.  It’s not that I don’t love my self, it just finding something to say.  There are plenty of things I love about my self but when I come to put in words, and for the world to see, I sit for a couple of minutes and think.

Before I went to bed I decided to pick  a cards from one of Doreen Virtue’s deck “the Ascension masters” and I picked : Writing.  I thought it was pretty accurate.  Plus this week’s astrology called for a certain accomplishment in that area.  So before closing the light last night I sat there with a pen and paper and came out a couple of poems.  So, if I listen I will hear more rimes.  I have to take the time to quiet my mind and write some more poems.

Well, I’m late paying a couple of bills.  I’m procrastinating.  I should do that today too and get it of my mind.  It’s sucking my good energy.

For the rest I’m proud of my accomplishments.  My house is clean,  I can work on typing the poems and work on the web design.  I take walks with Katou and brush her regularly.  I cook my self pretty good meals.  My laundry is regularly done too.  So I’m up to date with all my stuff.  I think it’s the fact that I writ e this and set goals.  It helps me to plane and get organized.  And like I don’t plane to mush stuff in advance I’m not disappointed.  On the contrary, I proud of my accomplishments.

Now, my cat Bibitte wants some food.  I think I’ll go and give him a little scoop.  Anyway my legs are sore and I’m quite done.

Wishing you readers a beautiful day!

Tuesday, February 23rd 2009

This morning I put my alarm clock on earlier so I don’t feel as rushed in the morning.  So I took my time to awake.  I feel sleepy but less in a rush.  As I woke I realized how chilly it was.  So I put wood in the fire and turned up the heat in my bedroom and closed the door.  And then I started to think of summer.  I’m already anxious to see the hot summer sun come in through my windows.  It would be wonderful to be able to lay in the sun for a couple of hours…  Nice!  In stead… I have snow packed up against my window.    Actually,  I’ve never seen the snow packed so high against that window.  I’ve been living here for almost 5 years.

It’s weird, I have hardly anything to say this morning.  I could tell you it’s Monday and that I don’t feel like working but since I got up earlier I don’t feel it as much.  And it’s not that I don’t want to work, it’s more like it’s too early for me.  If it was for me I would show up at 9h00 or 9h30.  Or work from home, that would be just great!  I could be here with my beloved dog and cat and take care of my home.   And I do believe I will do that some day.  Meanwhile, I’m dreaming it.  Nothing wrong with creative thoughts right?

Yesterday I was feeling better so I went to see my family ants, uncles and cousins.  We have a family house were the guests all stay.  So we joined and had breakfast before they were off for the hockey finally.  They lost.  Honestly the team they played against should have been in the “C” category and not “D”.  My family played in  D.  I was a good game.

When I came back home I went for a walk, vacuumed my floors and typed some poems.  So I’m happy to say that I accomplished my 3 goals.

So today’s goals will mostly be related to work.  Maybe I could set 1 for work, 1 for home responsibilities and 1 for creativity.

1. There is this section were I’m almost done preparing the book intellectually (data).  I think, if I put my heart to it I could almost finish it up.  It depends on how much little visitors I get…
2. At home, I need to clean my bathroom.
3. Creativity wise, put on paper my ideas for my website design.

Now for 3 things I love about my self.

1. I talk less and try to listen to others more.
2. I always smile and greet others with happiness the way my dog greets me when I come home.  (See what I mean?…)
3. Lateley I’ve been more present at home and more focused.

I wonder if I have a lot of reading or research groups coming to the library today… I have no idea.  Usually, on day one I have just a reading group at 3h00, I think.

Yesterday, I didn’t go see Katou’s former owner.  But she was telling me that she lost a bernese from a disease.  It took 4 weeks and he was gone.  It’s an unbalance gland that swells up the muscles and then the just stop functioning or something.  I don’t know how it’s called but anyway It keeps the dog from being able to open his jaw.  So no more barking, playing of eating.  Then they just die.  My bernese is 8 years old and healthy I think.  But I be watching those jaws and doing reiki on her.  I’m not quite ready for her to go yet!!

Well, I’d love to chat some more but it’s my time.

Good day!

Monday, February 23rd 2009.

I dreamt of an aspect to put on my web site.  How cool is that?  I have to check that out later on… 

I can’t wait to put that web site together.  I’ve put some ideas in OneNote.  I had some more yesterday and this morning.  I’m pretty excited.  I’m putting the themes and items together in my head.  Maybe I should draw some on paper. Like how I want every thing to be displayed.  I want to check some colours too… I have questions though about images I want to use.  I’m wondering if I need permission from the artist or author… I don’t know… I don’t know how it works… My appointment with the web designers is next Monday.  If I decide to hire them I’ll have the whole week to work with them since it will be my march break.  I’m so sure this whole thing is going to work and be so great.  I don’t have a doubt in my mind.

My family’s hockey team are play right now (Sunday, 8h30)  I hope it goes well for them.  If the go to finals I might go see that game since I’m feeling better.

I know I’m infected because of the colour when I spite or blow my nose.  But I’m feeling fine no, aches and pains.

So yesterday I accomplished 2 of my goals :

1. Type my poems (and more than 5)
2. Take a walk.

For the third one it was a scrapbook page.  But I sort of notice that I have no photos really.  But I know it’s my ego trying to justify its self. 

Today’s goals :

1. Type at least 5 poems, again.
2. Take a walk, again.
3. Vacuum my floors.

Now for three things I love about my self :

1. I’m pretty.
2. I’m intelligent.
3. I can be funny too!

There, that wasn’t so hard now was it?

It’s snowing again.  It’s been snowing a whole lot this passed week.  In the whole province of Québec a lot of snow has fallen.

I haven’t share this blog with anyone yet.  I should send the link to my family and friends now that all my other pages are posted.  I was a little shy but I think I’m ready, or almost, for feedback.  I’m the type of person that won’t put my self out there unless I’m sure of my self.  I tend to keep my intimate life very private this strangers or people I hardly know.  I guess I’m afraid of judgment and tend to protect my self to much from the outside.  I’ve been working hard to transform those wall into opening and closing doors.  So I can walk out and let people in…  Hmmm interesting concept… I just typed that going with the flow of the idea.  Neat!

Today I’m visiting Katou’s former mom…  I’ll get some flowers and give her the scrapbook I made.  I pretty sure she be thrilled.  She’s such a nice and generous lady too!  I haven’t seen her in a while.

Well, my cat wants food and I don’t have any.  I have to go shopping, poor Bibitte!

So I’m ready to start off my day…

Sunday, February 22nd 2009